Internship last day T.T

Last day, intership hav been end with full stop..
i'm reali thank them tat teach me so much thing that i'm nvr touch or learn before.
although some of my friends say intership like "kuli", but for me its answer is "Yes, kuli" but they training me as the way of kuli way..there is also another way of training..
i still remember tat they shake hand with me before off their work one by one..Tat moment, i'm touched because we have work together since almost six months..Thank u all again for help me and teach me..
Miss the Internship training period..

A song saying out my feel

张栋梁-重伤
乘著黑夜還未破曉之前 離開你 你那時還睡得很甜蜜 是否有察覺到我的一片苦心 是為了不讓你逃避你自己 也許我還不夠能力把你撤底忘記 至少我懂適當時離去 我受了重傷 已不再對愛渴望 握緊的手 始終要放 留得住的只是恍然 我受了重傷 離開只是種療方 放手逃離傷心的海岸 遺憾的是沒找到麻木的藥方 多留一分鐘 就多痛一分鐘 我該學會如何遺忘 自私一分鐘 就能從痛苦中釋放 不必為了別人而傷

i'm reali useless..
always lose to others..i'm reali hope tat i can so greedy so tat no nid think for others..but i can't..
Hurt within heart ..mayb won't touch for "love" again until i'm rich enulf to give my partner for everything she wan..
Learn to be strong to reach my target..i'm always remind myself ..

Lost myself

Today is her birthday.
Tis few days after she move in..i'm keep having dream during sleep..or either i'm shuld call tis is dream or nightmare?? i'm dun understand..

some ppl ask me why allow she move in?? i answer with them with no sure..

Yes!..i admit i'm still  love with her after few month tat we break down.
.i'm admit i miss her whether she going well with her new life, new friends, new boy friend..
but tis didn't de reason for she move in..

but 1 thing for sure is at least i'm glad and relax tat she now having a good life with her boy friend especially her smile hav been come back..

but i'm didn't get it the ans for break down..
Why u misunderstand me..

Why my life goes by tis way in the last end of year b4 sem 1 exam..

Everynite i keep having nightmare about tat day..
 and feel that anger and sad which i'm faced after tat day...i would nvr forget about it..i'm hav been scared for tis type of feeling.
..i nvr forget tat day how tat feeling tat fall on me.
.i did admit i'm wanna suicide after tat day coz i totally lost myself..
wat about our promise?

i'm had been lost myself..i always ask myself that why i'm still caring about her since she did tat bad memory on me..

My quotation tat is if my ans, my thinking opposite with how my heart thinking, tat mean i'm opposite with myself... .
.mayb it is my ans for allow she move in.

.i shuld never doubt with my opinion..

i'm remind myself that we re juz relaitionship betw houseleader and housemate..

tat is for sure..and i never ever cross tat line which i'm set it..

i nid to be strong enough to handle tis "houseleader"..
to handle tis house's problem..
nvr angry, be patient and strong to handle the housemate problems.
Help each other if can.


already 5 months after tat day..

Today is ur birthday, hope u enjoy tis special day..
Happy birthday to u



another diary for me since long time no update..

Internship's day

Well..i had been trainning about 5 weeks ord..
one month had been over..
what i 'm gain within tis month??:
- can wake up automatic about 6.30 to 6.45am without alarm.
- sure always take breakfast to fill energy.
-start planning to buy iphone? or buying sony Xperia? both nice.. having idea of buying it after saw all de staff my there having it.=.=lll
-learn many thing in my company. gain a different way of knowledges..
-sometimes buzy buzy but sometimes "goyang kaki"..
-know and start friendly with de staffs in my company..
-my face pimples less, has been learn to take care my face.
-wallet sure 'diet' faster coz eating in sunway area expensive!
-movies download sure everyday updates!
-weekend sure less at home..:p
-dota had been less playing..(play until sien maybe)..
Erm..wat else?? early sleep olso include during every night..hehe..

A nice photo to share

i found it at fb there..
Raining~ always make ppl feel sad and lonely..
but don't u recover that rainbow will appear after rain...with the smile shape..
it would be a lesson for me to learn..
beautiful~

该改变了。。

初一就过去KL了..但愿今天的除夕能过久一点此刻的我竟然睡不着!!回到诗巫时,发觉到自已的护担变轻了,虽然是暂时但不像之前堕落的我背着误会,失望和读书压力..想忘却忘不了却只能默默熬过去~玻璃碎了就算补一补还是有傷痕..但每一道傷痕都是紀念自己勇敢的印記啊,也给自已一个教训..祝福他们吧.


家人才是最重要啊。爸妈的关心还有家的温暖，在心里我还有这伟大力量。诗巫改变了我很多..谢谢..

Anger!!!!!!!!!!@#$$%%^!!!

ps: i hate ***..even when i saw his face everyday..my heart might lose control and wanna come near to him to punish him seriously..say truthly!! i have been patient tat always remind me so tat won't punch him with my own hand..but..!! after i heard from lover today..Anger keep burning within my heart..i still remember wat he told her bad things in front of me.. wat he laugh at her..every words he said i still remember even thought how many time he laugh at her!!!!even still in front of me!!!!!!  i hate he pretend like" fox" in front of my friends!!!!i regret tat why no punch him on tat time and keep silent at there..i regret!!!!!!!!!!..i wan he keep back his every words and apologize to her!!!!!!!!!!!Apologize!!! my heat juz keep thinking of it!!! I REALI DUN KNOW WHY HIS MUM CAN TEACH HIM SAYING LIKE TAT WAY!!!!! plus with almost everyday nid to see his "SHIT" face!!!!!!! Hope one day my heart lose control tat time!!! and follow wat my heart wanna do it!!!!
the more the patient of it,  the more the anger burning in my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even maybe i think his apologize is olso useless!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tat all!!!!